don’t burn yourself to keep others warm.

Yet I have already burned myself to warm the other. At some point, I felt okay, because the warmth I gave brought others comfort, safety, and good things. But I also felt the pain of burning myself.

Some of you (my friends) already know that the flames didn’t just hurt me, it consumed me. And soon, I will turn into ashes.

But it’s okay. Let me burn. Let me feel a kind of pain I’ve never felt before.

Through this, I feel more alive. The more it hurts, the more alive I become.

Don’t stop me my friends, I know what I’m doing, even when I keep pouring oil onto myself, even when the flames rise higher.

Like a phoenix, which must burn before rising into a new life from its ashes, so must I.

This agony is strangely beautiful. I know it hurts, very hurts yet I still embrace it. I do not regret becoming this way.

When I finally become ashes, I know a new and beautiful life will begin within me

On Letting the Fire Finish

2025 is about to end, and I did some short contemplations about what I’ve done this year. In short, it was better than 2024.

Let’s start with my programming job as a frontend developer at Rave Tech Pte Ltd (Singapore). This month marks my first anniversary working at Rave Tech. I work in a very small engineering team (only three people now), and each of us handles multiple projects, so we truly own what we build. I feel great working here, and I’ve learned a lot, especially about the travel tech field, not only on the technical side but also on the business side.

Moving on, this year I started a business as a weekend side project. When I began, I knew nothing. There were so many things to learn and understand, like operations, marketing, sales, finance (accounting and tax), etc. To be honest, I felt like “what the fvck is this” almost every day. That pushed me to keep learning daily by reading business-related books and buying courses. I bought GrowWin by Pak Win, totally worth it. I also asked some relatives who already understand business, and that helped a lot.

I started the business in May 2025, and it was finally ready to run in early December 2025. What did I do between May and December? I built the system while learning. The idea actually sparked in April, so from mid-April until this post was written, I only took nine days off. There was no option to be lazy or do useless things.

I also started investing in Bitcoin at the beginning of this year. I’ve known about investing since 2023 but kept postponing it until 2025. That was a big mistake, but it’s okay. I know Bitcoin is very volatile, but I understand what I’m doing and why I’m doing it. I’m genuinely interested in the crypto world, which is why I enrolled in Akademi Crypto to understand more about crypto and blockchain. And also I enrolled Ternak Uang courses to improve my financial knowledge.

It’s kind of crazy when I look back at what I did this year. In summary, I learned a lot. I gained new knowledge from many places, and it kept me humble, because I’m still stupid in some areas. I even used my vacation budget (originally planned for Japan) to buy courses and books. The best investment is in yourself first, because the price you pay for ignorance is far higher than the price of knowledge.

Another lesson I learned this year is about relationships, in general. I don’t want to talk about it in detail here, but in short: don’t burn yourself just to warm others. Maybe I’ll write a separate post about this someday.

Outside of work and business, one of my favorite moments this year was attending a Muse concert for the second time (in just two years). I also met a lot of wonderful people this year. New connections, new perspectives, and experiences that keep opening my eyes more and more.

2025: The Year I Stopped Waiting

This blog once held a collection of posts, stories, thoughts, and ideas that I poured my heart into. But now, they're gone, all because of a mistake I made.

Originally, I hosted my blog on 000webhost using WordPress. It was free and convenient, perfect for testing the waters. I always told myself I’d move to a more reliable service eventually. But I kept postponing it, thinking there was always more time.

Then came the announcement: 000webhost was shutting down, and users had 40 days to back up their data. Instead of acting immediately, I kept delaying, caught up in life’s distractions. By the time I decided to act, it was too late. The platform was gone, and with it, all my posts vanished into digital oblivion.

It’s a painful lesson about procrastination and the value of backing up what matters. While I can’t bring back my old posts, I can move forward, rebuild, and ensure this doesn’t happen again.

If you’re reading this and you’ve been putting off something important, take this as your reminder: don’t wait until it’s too late. Learn from my mistake, and protect what you’ve worked hard to create.

Losing My Blog

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